ughhhh.. my weight's not dropping. I feel like I wanna exercise. It's been a long time since I've danced (my way oof exercising). I'm thinking of learning *SNSD>Genie and *After school>Because of you. I don't know why but i like the cheography. it's challeging. but i'm really a fan of SNSD nor After school. Oh well?
*snaps finger* I just remembered. I wanna be tall! I'm hoping to achieve at least 160 or 158 by the end of this year. n_n but the sad thing is no one supports me *sigh* I'm sure I can still grow. I just gotta put faith and also find more tips on how to grow . .. 160cm ! i'll definitely reach there soon
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Exercise?
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Beautiful Friends
continuing. ..
fairy> you are also one of the person that helped me change. I beleive that you were the one that invited me to go out fo rthe first time in my life. I can't beleive it when you suddenly just ask me to go with you guys to but stuff for class. I was like a dream. Also Kemy for always being cheerful and helpful. Thank you both very much.
well, actually i have more to say but I'll just cut it short. I don't know why I'm writing this but I just suddnely feel like telling the world. hehe >_< . You guys are so good to me and so wonderful. I wish I could be like you guys. I know you will read this post sooner or later but I hope you won't treat me any different like I'm a helpless girl. No. I'm not a helpless girl anymore. I wanna be strong but along the way I will need your help n_n. thanks so much for being my friend and also for still being my friends. I hope that one day I can help you guys just as much as you have done for me. and also that we'll always be friends forever
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Lie? Suffering ? Tortured or just Happiness?
i don't know why but sometimes I feel like my life's is a bit meaningless. Well, I'm not just trying to say that only 'MY' life is meanningless. I'm sure there' lots of other people out there that feel this way too. Hmm.. i think the only year that I've felt 'ALIVE' is in 2008. That was the year when i took the UPSR exam. Fo rsome reason I was in the happy lad. I mean, I finally got friends after like 3 years at that school and I've found love (for once) ^_^ and also the most important, is that my family (parents) put no pressure on me. Even though I've never gotten 5A's during the whole school years b4 the UPSR but they seem to beleive in me. How much I missed those precious memories. My friends ... *sigh*
But as soon as the school days was over. There seem to be a huge change in my life. I seem to returned back to where I was always alone. I was trap back in a dark corner where no one would help me as they pass by.. T-T .. the most tortureful year was last year 2009. How i hated those memories. Usually people say their junior years in middle school are the best memories but,.. not fo rme. For me, those were soo painful that I could hae cried for days the whol eyear long. t_t..
As I thought i was still going to be tortured for the next ew years of my life, then came this year 2010. The year which seemed to have saved my life from the suffering. I guess it al started when I decided to make changes. Well, I've decided ot chnage myself a long time ago but never had the courage. Cause I was scared, scared that I would be judged, scared that I would be critisized , and also scared that I would be hated. I always pretend to be strong but deep here, I know I'm just a weak girl who always needs support to survive. *sigh* Why can't I be strong like my friends who are not scared to speak their mind. I'm always too cautious when I do anything because I'm afraid, afraid that I'll hurt their feelings even in the most tiniest way, afraid that they would avoid me.
But this year, I've changed, I think I was able to express my self like how I am at home. It was a hard prosess but i did it. , even though I managed to express myself better a bit , to me that's a lot of progress.. I guess it's all thanks to my friends. Especially, Cuwa. when, i first saw her she seemed bright, cheerful and full happiness. I was so amazed to see her like that. I think she was one of the first person to start to open back my heart and made me realiazed that this world is not as cruel as I thought. One recess, my friend had forgotten that she was on duty , so she immediately left. So, there i was eating at the canteen alone. *sigh* -_-, suddenly, Cuwa and Fairy, you were like angels who rescued me from drwoning in the pit of darkness. Thank you so much. There, as I was eating. Cuwa said "Alone?, why didn't you tell us? Next time don't ever have recess alone". I was so shocked and surprised to hear her say that. I can't beleive that she would talk to me let alone 'force' me to never have recess alone. (I was so happy that day)
The next day, I thought it was all a dream so, I continued to have recess alone cause I thought that 'why should they waste their time to go with me ?'. But, then she caught me alone on recess. Can you imagine this? She scold me for not inviting her to recess and having recess alone. That time, I secretly pinched myself and knew I was not dreaming. Thank you so much. ... continue
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Monday, August 23, 2010
T-shirt
Hey, today we finally got our class T-shirt after a long wait. (well, actually it wasn't that long) Anyway, when we got it this morning, from the looks on their faces not many of my classmate were satisfied with it. To me it looked good. I don't really see the down side of it. But, either way who do they want to blame? When i showed the shirt to my mom she immediately said it was pretty but after looking it for awhile she said " I prefer your sister's T-shirt", *o* . I was a bit shocked. I mean, I didn't even compared it to my sis's shirt. *sigh* What to do? I guess we all just have to accept it, just like fate ..
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
NO!!
Since now is the month of Ramadhan (when we muslims fast) and only eat like twice a day only. Of course our body would go through changes right? Well, its most probably and likely to get slim and lost weight. Last time I weighed was like early June and my weight was 41 (my height is 155cm) . After i went to SUKBEL, my weight drop 2kg to 39 . It's probably because I didn't ate for like 1 and a half day cause the food they served were fish and vegs. I mean, I'm not that picky of an eater but what can I do. What i don't eat, I won't eat. So, anyway. Just now after my family finished our meal after a day of not eating. My dad said "Hey, we should measure our weights and see by the end of the month to see the difference."
At first of course, I don't want to. I mean, I was stuffed just now. (We had Lasagnea-is this spelling, right?) SO, I now weigh 40kg. NO!!! to me that's heavy cause until I am 160cm I don't wanna be in the 40kg range. *sigh* even my big bro os 49kg. (That's light for a guy) He said the last time he weighed he was 56! 56 people! that's a HUGE difference! *sigh*
Okay, from now. Excersice ! Dance! It's been awhile since I last danced. n_n - Hope next time weighing i'll be 38kg n_n (I think that's possible)
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Friday, August 20, 2010
MERDEKA!
Every year on the 31st of August the whole country would take a holiday as that day was the day Malaysia became an independence country, a country that is not ruled by any other bigger countries. Since, now is the month of August, our school have organised lots of activities that is about Independence Day. And one of them is that to decorate the class with the independence theme. So, lots of flags are put up.
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Thursday, August 19, 2010
Yum Yummy.. n_n
Hey, i did it again. I cooked kuew tiau again 'and for the third time i think it is the best so far. Well, like the saying goes; ' Third times the charm" The color and taste is really good this time compared to the previous. Here's the pictures for evidence n_n
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Set the truth!
You know how I always complain about the guys in my class. Well, today it seems like they crossed the line! They've been bullying this other guy in my class who is a good friend and have always always been patient. But, the bullying that they did today really seemed to have crossed the line. After they did what they did (hide away his shoe in the class) they acted as if they did nothing. NOTHING! I mean seriously what kind of person would do that and none , NONE of them looks like they feel guilty! As a friend I feel the pain that he is suffering. And so did some , no most of the girls in the class.
After that, my friends and I went to Caunselling Room and made a session. We tried not to tell that they did that and all but in the end we gave up and just set the truth. We told i guess almost everything. I even told about how the dumped trash in my bag and when telling it I can feel back the pain which hurt so much and also when I heard my friends' stories, ... we all cried .. i mean .. we're human beings.. Human beings have feelings and we have the right to protect those feelings. I just don't understand why they could all do that?
You know, earlier this year, they weren't so bad. Of course they still weren't 'good' but they were okay. But, I just don't know what made them to suddenly take a huge leap from ' a bit naughty' to becoming ' horribly worse'. I just really hope they find back their tracks because if that happens, it'll happen for the befinit of both parties.
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Updated!
yah, sorry for not updating this blog for like .... a few weeks. I can't really be on the computer cause my pendrive got full of viruses from the school computer which immediately got tranfered to the computer when I plug in the pendrive. T-T *sigh* What to do? Now, I can only open the 'Internet Explorer' and I can't even open 'google Chrome' or 'Mozila Firefox'. Plus I can't scan anything and all the stuff in my pendrive is doom.
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Saturday, August 7, 2010
Thank you
FAiry, my dear friend, Thanks soo much for yesterday. I never would have thought that I would go to the cinema.
Yesterday, my friend Fairy ♥ and her family invited me to go and watch 'The Last Airbender' I was soo shocked and surprised by the invite as teh reason I went to her place is to help take care of Minho♥ (I miss you) . I thinkI've been neglecting my responsibility as I was the one who was so excited about talking care of it. Either way, thanks n_n
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Friday, August 6, 2010
STRESS!!! =_=
This is the longest and stressful week I think I've ever had. I don't know why but it's just stressful. Well, most of the stress comes from my health plus the stress from my classmates and lots more. But to be exact there's soo little amount of school wrok that needs to be done.
I cried like a lot of times this week cause of stress. I can't beleive it. It is just too stressful. i don't think I've ever been this stressful even when I was doing the StarNIE project .
Okay since I'm all better (i think) I'll just stop here I guess cause I don't feel like talking about thos stressful things. Oh yeah, and my computer is now in a really BAD condition so, I'll try my best to keep updating this blog. n_n
p.s ; I just read a manga about this girl who writes a blog novel.. hmm.. I'm thinking of making one too ^-^
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Sorry.
Ughh.. today was a HUGE mess. I don't know why but today me personality was so weird. Not to say that I'm always nice to anything but today I think i was being really mean.
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Monday, August 2, 2010
SUCCESS!
Yes. I finally finished fasting! Wohoo~ Wow~ today felt soo long. Tomorrow I can eat again. Till next week. :C I think we have 9 days left till the month of Ramadhan (the month where we have to fast all month) welcomes us.
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Just for laughs? = NO!
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